A Lost Wallet

Have you ever lost your wallet?  Well, I did today.  Wynn and I had been shopping in Victoria and were on our way home.  We took the long way so that I could stop in Cordova Bay to visit a Quilting Shop there.  When I was getting out of the car, I could not find my wallet.   At first, total panic set in, as I began to think about everything that was in it.  I told Wynn we need  to get home quickly so I could cancel my cards and then I need to report it to the police.  Wynn started asking me questions, like, when did you have it last?   I remembered having it in Home Depot, the last place we were in in Victoria.  Then, I remember setting it down when I tried on a headset to protect your ears from noise.  I didn't remember picking it back up again.  Okay, so we turn around and head back to Home Depot.  How could I be so careless?  I should have taken my purse in, instead of just my wallet.  I started getting angry at myself.    Suddenly, it hit me.  This is not how I want to be reacting.  Is it the end of the world?  No!  Am I okay, healthy, safe?  Yes!  I began to thank God in the situation for his goodness and a calmness began to come over me.  I prayed that I would get my wallet back somehow, but knew that it would be alright if I didn't.  When I went into the store, I asked at the 'till if a wallet had been turned in.  I told her where I had placed it down and she phoned that department.  No, they had not seen it.  She checked at the office and no, it had not been turned in.  She said, "Sorry, honey!"  I could have left then.  But I decided to check where I had set it down to see if maybe it had fallen underneath something.  But no, it wasn't there.  An employee was sitting near by at a desk and I asked her if she had seen a wallet.  She said that she didn't work in that department.  Another employee standing nearby heard me ask her about a wallet and he said that he found it and had turned it into the customer service department.  I was elated.  I walked over to the desk and told them about my wallet.  The young man could not find it, but kept looking as I told him what the employee had said, that he took it to customer service.  Finally, he found it.  I went back to the employee and thanked him, again.  It is so good to know that there are honest people in this world.  But more importantly, I am so thankful that I have someone to turn to when things go wrong and I don't have to worry or let things get me down. 

 


Why?

Have you ever decided to do something you have never done before and then after the fact asked yourself the question why?  That was me this morning.  My buttock muscles and lower back are giving me such grief.  The reason is that last night was ballet class, yes, you heard me right.  I am attending an adult ballet class.  We do a little modern dance with it, but it is mostly ballet.  Last night was the fourth night and only 2 people were there.  So it was a semi-private lesson and there was no place for me to hide at the back of the room, ha, ha!  Where was everyone anyway?  Consequently, as there was only one other person to watch besides me, I felt I needed to do everything correctly, give it everything I have.  Yikes!  As a result, the teacher noticed that I have very high arches and she said many ballet dancers would be most envious.  Of course, that made me, in my mind, want to do more than my body really wanted to.  Therefore, the pain this morning.  I know it will pass.  Would I recommend ballet class to someone my age who has never taken ballet before?   No, run the other way!   Just kidding!  It is very good discipline for the body and mind.


Time For Change

When you get diagnosed with cancer, your body is saying to you that "It's time to make some changes in your life!"  At least, that is what I am proposing.  The first time I had cancer I didn't do anything different.  I was just happy that it was over and all was well.   Then, several years later, cancer invaded my life again.  I can't help but wonder if I had changed things the first time around, would cancer have reappeared.  Of course, there is really no way to know.  There are so many factors involved with cancer. 

However, cancer is definitely a break down of the immune system.  Therefore, it is imperative to build it back up.  But just as important as that is, it is also important to find out what is suppressing the immune system and keeping it from doing it's job.  This is where things get complicated and where the medical system fails.  It seems that the medical system is more concerned with treating the symptoms, ie: tumours, etc. than finding out what caused the cancer in the first place. Please understand I know there are exceptions; and symptoms that are life threatening must be treated immediately.  But there is time to sit back and assess your life.  You probably still have tomorrow.  What things could be causing you 'dis-ease'?  What can you do to ease those situations?  How can you learn to cope better?

In my case, anger and control were issues that I did not handle well.  Once I realized the problem, anger was fairly easy to deal with, as it was mostly directed at myself. I had to learn to really accept and love who I was/am.  Being in control was (and still is at times) extremely difficult for me to give up; but it was a big part of my journey with cancer.  Other factors for me were diet, exercise, breathing properly, (yes, you read that right) and learning to detox the physical, emotional and spiritual areas of my life.  You can find out more about this in my book "TWICE: Lesson, Insights and Healing from Cancer."  My point is that we must take a look at the environments surrounding us both inside and out.  If changes need to be made, face them head on and if necessary get the help to do it.

Cancer does demand a life change and the key to getting well and staying well is to embrace those changes.  It's never too early or too late to begin.  Cancer does not need to be a death sentence.

 


Birthdays!

Birthdays are special.  This one certainly was.  Of course, receiving my book at the same time and recalling my clear CT scan has surely put this one over the top.  But I am reflecting tonight about how special our birth day is.  God planned the day that I would be born; it is a special day.  He knew who my parents would be, who I would grow up to be and the special plans He has just for me.  I am part of a family and tonight we celebrated together.  However, part of my celebration tonight is a gratefulness to God for who I am and have become because of His love for me.  My earthly family is a big one; but I am part of an even bigger family than that.  I am a part of the family of God.


Sugar and Cancer

Just recently there has been some new information regarding sugar and cancer.  It is a well known fact that cancer cells love sugar; they actually thrive on it.  Hence, cancer cells show up so clearly on a CT scan, which includes putting a type of sugary solution in your body. 

Therefore, I have always understood that we need to avoid all types of sugar, of course the kind in cookies, cakes, pies, candy, etc.; but also to avoid having too many fruits because of the sugar.  This always puzzled me because I once heard of someone who cured her cancer by juicing only the purple grapes. Also carrot juice is high in sugar and beneficial for cancer patients.

Dr. Tony Jimenez, M.D., the Medical Director of the Hope 4 Cancer Institute in Tijuana, Mexico, along with a scientist from India who works with him at his clinic have discovered that fruit of any kind, as well as carrots and beets, does not feed cancer, in spite of the sugar they contain.  This is because the fructose (one form of sugar) in these foods is a "left-spinning" molecule.  That's what the lower-case "l" in front of the fructose means.  Cancer feeds on "right-spinning" molecules of sugar -- glucose, sucrose, etc.  Dr. Jimenez says that even honey, syrup and molasses that is unadulterated is quite healthy for cancer patients.  

So this is good news for those of us who do like something sweet.

This information was found on Bill Henderson's website  www.beating-cancer-gently.com

Also, www.chrisbeatcancer.com is another site that talks about eating fruit

 


Fantastic News!

I have some news that is just so great that you probably will wonder why I have not posted it before now.  But approximately 3 weeks ago I had a CT scan.  The results were that there is no new activity in my body.  The tumours that were there, spotted in 2013, have shrunk significantly.  This is just the best news.

In October of 2013, I had a CT scan that revealed that some small cancer tumours had returned in the lower abdomen area, in my lymph nodes.  I was going to Africa in January 2014.  I didn't tell anyone and just trusted that I would be fine.  When I returned, I began the Budwig program of cottage cheese and flax oil along with Barley Max, juicing and Beta1-3D glucan.  I cut back on meat consumption, but not entirely and of course cut out most sugar, white products, etc. I do have a sweet tooth.

And now here is the result, 2 years later.  Cancer is not a death sentence.  I feel fantastic and people tell me I look great!  (Who are they kidding?)  Seriously, though it pays to take care of yourself and put whole foods in your body.  It helps that my husband loves to garden and so I know where a lot of my produce comes from.

When I eat meat, I buy grass fed beef, organic free range chicken (and eggs) and salmon, that my husband catches.

As I mentioned, I do have a sweet tooth and will share in another post what I have just learned about sugar and fruit.

 

 


Be Active, Feel Good

Well, this has been a very busy summer for me. A trip to Ontario, hiking, biking, bowling, museum visits, our daughter's wedding and a family vacation up island, not to mention all the fun cooking and making cookies (no-bake) with grandkids has certainly caused my summer to be busy.  Being active and using up energy has even generated more energy in me and I feel good.  My body has responded with endorphins (feel-good chemicals) and I have felt truly happy. 

Now that the dust has settled and things seem to be getting back to normal around here; I am left with quiet and solitude, well almost.  My point is do I settle for that or do I continue being active and getting out.  I have discovered that for me, a cancer survivor, I need to be busy.  I need to be active and that makes me happy.  It is the satisfaction of having done something good for me and my body.  Afterwards I can bask in the satisfaction of whatever activity I have completed.

Today Chloe and I, my dog, walked for an hour this morning.  Now after completing a load of wash and hanging it on the line, I am going to read a little in my hammock and then.  Who knows? 

 


New Year's Resolution

Have you heard of the One Word resolution?  Actually, it is called #OneWord365.  I read about it on a Facebook post.  

Basically, the idea is to forget about new year's resolutions.  How many of us remember them after a few weeks anyway?  I know I don't and so don't usually make any.  However, this year I am excited about the idea to Choose just one word! That's it.     

You focus on one word, every day, all year long.  In essence, the word should sum up who you want to be or how you want to live.  On the website, it suggests that it will not be easy; you will need to be committed.  But if you let it, it will shape you, as it wil help to direct your decisions and guide your steps.

I have thought long and hard about what word I would choose.  Surprisingly, I chose "Die". What on earth do I mean?

Die to preconceived ideas that don't match up with who I was designed to be and therefore discover who I really am.  Die to selfishness in all areas of my life.  Die to perfectionism in my health, in my writing, in my relationships.  Die to procrastination, etc.  You get the idea.

How about you?   What word would you choose?

 

 


A New Year

It is time to get back to writing on this blog. I can't believe how long it has been.  Nevertheless, it has been an interesting year.  It began with a visit to Uganda which you can read about in my blog entitled  - jobrown.typepad.com/Uganda

After, my return home we went to the Grand Canyon with friends, which you can also read about on this blog.  The remainder of this year has been all about me.  What do I mean?  Well, a few cancer tumours showed up in my belly.  So, I have been really careful about what I am eating and doing.  I decided, this time, to add Johanna Budwig's protocol of mixing cottage cheese with flax oil.  By itself, it is very yucky tasting.  But when you add berries, almond milk, some cinnamon and walnuts to the mix, it is actually very good.  It is also a very filling breakfast and gives you your protein right off the start. 

Another thing, I did this time around was to have a good look at my emotions, prompted by a book called "The Emotion Code."  I had several sessions with an emotion coach and to be honest, I did not think it was doing anything at all.  But, after about the 7th session, I felt lighter.  It is hard to explain; but it is seriously worth looking at if you have any type of chronic disease.  I have felt wonderful.  Indeed, I have checked in with the cancer clinic in November and everything looks great.  Whatever, I am doing, keep doing it. 

Then, just before Christmas,  I had an interesting development.  I got "Shingles"; the result of pushing myself to the limit, both day and evening, I believe.  But it was a very mild case and did not upset the wonderful time we had with our family.  My grandchildren were all together and we had so much fun with them.  

So this is another new year.  Folks, I have been talking about writing a book for years.  It was at the publishers, but I put it on hold to deal with this last health issue.  Now that everything is resolved, I can say, I am back at it again.  And hopefully, very soon I will have a copy in my hand to look at. 

For those of you who get to read it, I hope it encourages you to never give up.  That is my message.  The title of my book is "Twice: Lessons, Insights & Healing from Cancer!"

 

 

 


Happiness

“People are just as happy as they make up their minds to be.”  What do you think about that statement?  Are we responsible for our own happiness? 

In the past, I used to think that my happiness depended on others.  When I was first married, I thought my husband was responsible for making me happy.  I didn't actually say it; but if I was upset or angry, it was usually his fault, or so I thought.  Part of it was immaturity and part of it was me being selfish. The other part was not realizing what true happiness is.

There are many ways to obtain happiness; make more money and you will be happy, spend less time making money and spend more time with family and friends, smile more, laugh more, get out and socilize, volunteer and give back to the community, hum, sing, dance and the list goes on.

All of these ideas are admirable and can indeed make us happy.  The problem is they don't last.  They are only temporary fixes. These are not the ways to be happy. If one is to find true happiness, he must rise above these worldly ideas.

Obtaining true happiness must come from within.   The basis of true happiness is in direct relation to what I think about myself.  Do I like myself?  Would I want to be my friend?  We can change things about ourselves.  We can be friendlier, we can be more positive and outgoing.  And while this is true, that happiness must come from within, is it enough to sustain us through lifes ups and downs?

I believe true happiness goes much deeper than that.  True happiness is directly related to what I think God thinks about me.

Think about that for a moment.  Does God love you or even like you?  The Word of God is very clear about what God thinks about you.

And when I think of what God thinks about me, I cannot be sad.  I am instantly happy because He loves me so much that he died for me.  He loves me when I am grumpy, through my successes and my failures, and forgives me no matter what I do.

In answer to my question, Are we responsible for our own happiness? I believe the answer is true.  Happiness is actually a choice.  It begins and ends with you.  You can choose to believe what God says about you or not.  Therefore, seek the happiness that comes from above.  You owe it to yourself to find out what He thinks about you.